Tuesday, September 25, 2012

life long dream

hi guys. it's been a while since i've written an entry in this lame blog of mine. i remember back in '09-10. hell. there was lot of post and lot's of friends(blogger). i wonder if they still out there? if you are out there. just drop by the chat box and i'll hit you back for sure. ;)

alright guys. remembered back in '09 when i was first promised to be given BMW e36 325i. yes. at that moment i've already planned to enter SIC with it. but. it turns out i've been awarded with Alfa Romeo 146 1.7 boxer. hell of a car. been driving it for over 3 years. and still serving me the adequate adrenaline meals. :P

so. last sunday, 23rd sept. 2012. the day marked my inaugural entrance into the battlefield of SIC. yes. participated in track day organized by Ftuned Racing. alongside 7 other Alfa Romeo representing AROCKV. we grind that tarmac real good.

there's something about before big events. some people call stage fright. some call them the yips. but what i think? it was major freak out and boy. you'll get so nervous that you don't even make sense and can't do simple things.

thank god. my co-pilot was a track amateur named anjang. and bunch of other people who given pretty useful tips and technique. joe,ejad,amir,nick,daniel,farouk and few others. also RBR autocare support team. khai and aimran was a huge helps when they assist in last minute track prep.

frankly speaking, i only known that i'm going to participate less than 2 hours. so, yes. my car are not prepared so do i. for that i would like to thanks to all the supports i have that day. including AROCKV group encouraging me to just go with it.

all in all. it was a very fun day. never driven my car that hard. and never ever imagined i would have the experience of racing in SIC. even it was track day. but trust me. no one will enter SIC if they aren't gonna trash their car as hard as possible.

enough with this. let's view the day from another medium. the picture. coz picture speaks thousands word. enjoy my piece of experience.

anjang my co-pilot on left and me

the group shot of participant. find me if you can. ;)

out of racing line just to get this photo taken. haha

yes. that my 1.7 boxer beating the crap out of 2.0 v6 turbo

the line of the serpent that day that invades SIC

AROCKV media team preparing GoPro for video

right before trashing the car. wuhuu~

from the left, farouk of ftuned racing, my car, farouk wife, joe  car

leading the pack. ;)

F-4, stands for flat-4 configuration (boxer)

the guards are shocked. rarely an alfa enters SIC. ;)

alright, here we go guys! :D

in a blink 4 laps done. :P

was grinding the pedal to the floor

another round for time attack.

last turn. and the body rolls like hell. 

aftermath, they all chilling and i was checking my burned and ripped tires. XD

life long dream. most of them are completed. next? 
get married. hopefully with my lovely vee hunney. ;)
the end! till next post guys. :)

Monday, June 18, 2012

salute mi familia

today i'm going to talk about "mi familia"..here.  a picture of us. :)

let me start introduce the composition that made these picture. it may be wrong for them.but to me. for 20 years. this is how i know them and always remembered how they are.

1st left: Mak
1)she is one authoritative figure in our family. she controls things more than you could ever realize. she does it boldly usually. taking example, she would fight the fight that my father doesn't even want to fight. usually, she's the mastermind in every our family action. she is the silent guardian of our family.
2) she is one wise people in relationship i ever meet. none like anyone in my family, my mothers is the only person who cared about my relationship and giving advice from time to time. in addition she got lots of experience from the story i've heard.
3)she also very secretive(sort of). taking example when she upset about something she doesn't tell you in the face but she tell them to the others. she just need someone to hear her out. let say my sis making problem. she nags to me and she smile to my sister regardless the problem.
4)she also the figure of great trust. in these era. she doesn't even have a handphone and never bother. why? she trust her husband. but never. unleash. the kraken. coz you really don't want to be there when she's upset. it's get pretty brutal. trust me. 
5) she also have a very great instict about stuff. so if i have any problem. usually her words is out of logic. but still workable. idk why. but i do trust her advice with my life. she can see the bullshit our of someone. she saw someone and may say "she's not worth it". but she also saw my vee. and she suddenly says, she's pretty.  weird huh?

the middle: akak
1)she is one smart piece of ass. she is the smartest among us. she study abroad and can think very critically. but she is more logic based than my mother.
2)she does have standards of all things. no matter what. she want's every in her life to be exactly how she wanted them to be or else.
3)a very tough one. she want what she wants. she have these stubborn head which made me remember, once while she was kid. she's willingly to roll on the road just to get a colouring books. she also could grab a food inside my fathers mouth just to eat them even it's already chewed on. 
4)she doesn't have the comforting words but her wise words does reflects that she is very very positive and don't give a damn about a negative things. she doesn't care what other says as it was her life after all and no theirs.

the second right: abg
1) he is one very funny guy i must tell you. but these jokes sometimes comes on wrong place and wrong time. but all in all, it's very funny.
2)very religious, he view religion just like the way i do. it's something very abstract, which means simple things but looks closer and there's more. look a lil bit closer. and there's more.
3)the family guy. he put's his family above anything else. that's it. nothing less for his family. but she seems to be abit too easy to be fooled by woman. 

the right: ayah
1) he is very quiet persons that love to sleep. he hates crowded places or anyone that bother him while he was asleep.
2)he is very obliged to his wife. for 20 years. most decision he made must be in conformity with his wife advice.even he will only mad at something that my mother mad at. if my mothers fine. he's fine.
3) he doesn't count love. he doesn't care if you ask him money. coz to him. money comes and goes. just need them to keep the loved one happy and he'll happy.
4)he doesn't bother. what you do, he love it. no matter what. he have the great acceptance of everything and quite positive guy if his wife isn't around. 

my family for the past 20 years thought me different things. and the dynamic marriage role by my father and mother is something that i wanted in my future relationship with vee. she said that a guy who loved his mother is tend to be a good husband. but to me. who sons doesn't loves their mother. what i think is that your entire family influence on how you want your family in future.

and by this logic. i wanted my future wife(hopefully vee) to be more like my mother. a protective person who fought for me no matter what. controls everything in life to get things right the way she want. 
and i want to be like my father. no matter what, he decides things by the decree given by his wife. doesn't care about anything than his wife wishes. and fully influenced by his wife.
maybe these sounds un manly, but it's the way i've grown up in and i loved it these way. 

there's actually more of them. but i think these few things is important. so. watch these video. 
salute mi familia!

Friday, June 15, 2012

it's already too late

Mia Toretto: Let this go. Before it's too late. 

Dominic Toretto: It's already too late. 

yes. that's the quote of fast and furious(2009) and i think it's suits me well at these point of time.

so. here we are. the old age question. i've got nothing left to explain. coz when i do. i'm afraid it's just a bunch of lies from me to keep you by my side coz i loved you. clearly i don't understand love coz in love there's shouldn't be lie. maybe it's date back to the day from early 2005 where all my relationship are built solely on purpose of lies. i remember my first gf. the purpose was to get a school prefect gf so that spot check can be predicted accurately to cover up my peeps. so there. my whole relationship was rotting foundation of lies.

"I dunno what to tell you, Marge! I don't think about things. I mean, I respect those who do, but... I just try and make the day not hurt until I can crawl back in with you." -homer simpson

his quote is exactly what i've done alot with vee. i don't think about things. i just try my hardest to make the day doesn't hurt till i can crawl back with you. why? idk. if u asked me. this is the reasons why i'm such a big fat cheater. i'm pretty sure that i messed up all my relationship n drag every girl ever existed to come to be an enemy of my state of mind. hmm.

enough quote time. let's talk about yesterday. yes. i'm changing the call in life. not a cliche. for real. i'm changing my phone number,e-mail n social network details. why? for the reason. that last night during the fight with vee. i had a epiphany about what shits going through in my relationship.

the weaklings are not from my ex, it's me
the memory of my past never haunted me, 
but it's me who want them to hunt me

since i must gone through these phase coz such a weaklings. it's seems okay coz in my current relationship the strongest one always vee. and this is her decision that i agree coz maybe it's the only way.
thus. by changing all the afore mention. things hopefully will change. and by vee on my side it's seems for the first time in my life, things gonna be okay. and finally things get better indefinitely. coz she'll be there. (i hope so)
these action had closed the chapter of where i'll be looking back coz i've learnt my lessons. giving a better chance towards tomorrow. wow. i never felt more relieved..this ought to be the best decision i've ever made in relationship life. 

i'm ashamed for what i've done, 
i'm fear for what i'll do,
but i'm proud of my act today

now, that's about yesterday. now it's today. vee want me to see her. dear god i pray it'll go fine. i been refusing them a few times before. because i'm afraid i'm going to show up just to hear a break up words. it's better not to confront such heart breaking words coz i'm not ready. even i know it's too late too change anything now. idk. i don't think i ever wanna hear that words no matter how screwed up i was. coz i'm always afraid of being alone. the last time i'm all alone i winded up ending in drugs scene. 

urm? there. a reason why i'm such a weaklings when i'm alone. 
urm? now i know why i said she was the best i've ever had and the best i ever can get. 

urm? now i know the reason why i loved vee so much

coz she's the light that guide me,
the parts that completed me,
the shield that protects me,
the spirits that keeps me going,
the wisdom who decides who i am,
the solution that i looking for,
she's the one.

but..it's already too late. lied too much n too long.
my light grew dimmer,
the parts now crumbling,
the shields worn down,
the spirits now stops,
the wisdom is tired,
the solution stop solving,
will she remains the one?

for that question. my answer is she is the one. but to remains to be the one. it's impossible. but that's what the one meant isn't it?

the one is whom lasted and gone something nobody does for you.

Monday, May 14, 2012

kau kawan terbaik pernah aku ada

-lebih dari 10kali kita berguling sama2 atas jalan eksiden
-dekat 10tahun kenal kau
-hampir 2 tahun pergi sekolah sama2 naek motor suzuki RR
-dari kau baru kenal motor sampai la motor kau laju macam skang aku dgn kau
-kau sanggup ponteng keja dan ambik aku kat kuantan semata mata motor aku rosak
-kau sanggup teman aku ambik motor kat kuantan walaupun xd brake
-kau la yang ajar aku bawak kereta
-kau simpan seribu satu rahsia tentang aku
-kau yang ajar aku maen game RO
-kau bersama dengan aku separuh hidup aku
-kau la wing man terbaek
-kau yang ajar aku bawak motor clutch
-kau ajar aku memasak
-kau ajar aku pki chopstick
-helmet aku skang ni kau yang hadiahkan
-kau selalu bg semangat tok aku
-kau sanggup korban apa saja untuk kawan2
-dari kau bawak basikal sampai motor 
-kau la yang rajin ajak aku merayap
-kau la yang rajin teman aku pagi2 buta sampai mak aku hambat
-dulu kongsi bantal dgn ko 
-kau bawak aku jalan2 time keje peon dulu
-kau la rakan sparring BGQ 5880
-kau yang dulu ikat rambut aku time panjang giler
-kau la yang pujuk aku botak sekali dalam seumur hidup
-kau la yang paham aku sgt2 dlm dunia ni
-even kau yang ajar aku parking keter
-kena marah sama2 balik lambat
-stay up baring2 atas simpang mobil 2pagi
-dulu rajin kita pusing2 subang petang2
-kau la yang rajin buat aku tergelak sampai nangis2
-kau yang pujuk aku balik time lari rumah
-kau je yang pernah starlite pale aku
-kau sama2 mcm aku pki crocs even smpi skang
-kau sanggup sponsor aku gi konvoi
-kau la GPS paling power pernah aku jumpa
-kau la bantal paling sedap pernah aku letak pale
-kau salah satunya kawan yang pernah aku nangis sesame
-kau antara orang paling 'innocent' pernah aku jumpa
-kau papah aku bangun bila eksiden
-kau je kawan yang sanggup pujuk aku bila merajuk
-kau je kawan yang aku banyak kali nak eksiden maut dgn aku
-kau punya lawak kalah raja lawak
-kau la kawan karaoke terloncat2 macam orang gila dgn aku
-kau jiran selang satu rumah
-kau support aku walau apa pon aku buat
-kau sanggup cover aku walau kau taw kau yang kena nanti
-kau la orang yang aku suka call kalau aku stuck dalam hujan time nek moto
-kau ajar aku susah cari duit zaman sekolah
-kau kawan pertama datang time aku masuk sepital

kau...kau kawan terbaik pernah aku ada cit. byk sgt memori kita. byk sgt yg aku xdpt lepas nk ckp kt kau.
aku..aku  rindu sgt kt kau. maaf xdpt jadi kawan lebih baik dan jarang ada bersama kebelakangan ni. (T_T) 

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

one year one picture one story

as 2011 ends. 
lots of memory to be remembered,
 lots of scars to be covered and 
lots of smile to be cherished.

early 2011, 
january highlight

ended my apprentice program at Zagato auto garage
good working experience. gave me a lot of knowledge about my own alfa romeo cars. who says it easy to work there?in middle of the sun, lifting 1k kg with only a fulcrum with one your buddy,  you work from 10-6, monday till saturday. when you get home. all energy left is to eat and sleep. =_=

done a great artwork i'm proud of till today
done a great artwork(for me) on my helmet visor. pretty cool i think. idea taken from starcraft 2.
also a frequent visitors on karaoke box
yes my voice ain't that good. but it's very relaxing. screaming like hell or just feel the song and cried. 

february highlight

a yearly event that me and my friend usually done on chinese new year. we gone full attack on fraser hills winding road. seek for fun and pleasure. 
bike line up, mine on the middle. 

missile in the air
releasing a controversial picture of me and my current gf. hihihi..in the same month we also travelled to kuala kangsar together to attend her ex teacher wedding. nice trip. :)

march highlight

mission accomplished
after a few month we both struggled in defining our relationship. finally we sealed the deal by 14/03. or 11/03 where something important happened between us. :)

april highlight

zera final spec upgrade
my bike had been overhauled and received an extensive modifications by receiving a tzm carb and additional engine mods

may highlight

first crash of my life
this is basically the worst and the first crash i ever had in my driving career.  it ended my accident free streak for 2 years. :'(

june highlight

started working as a runner
a simple job with a high paying allowance. relax and chilled. all the time. trust me. 

learned how to go fishing!
my friends 'racun' me for an hour and i bought a fishing rod and followed them instantly! XD

this is also i've been into dyno and professional performance workshop for proper advice about my car. :)

RC fever is back~
my RC (XCC) club had been kind enough to invite me to their event where we controlled a booth of touring rc car event on PJRC power boat international event

july highlight

head blow
my car received top overhaul and i put some art work on my car. ekekeke..see the red? that's my work. 

august highlight

first dinner with XCC family
my RC team never done this. and i'm proud to be part of it! congratz guys. should done it more often.

shopping and raya~!!!
gone shopping at jln TAR and then...tadaaa..nice couple outfit. the sale girls said 
"macam nak match pengantin". hahaha~

september highlight

my sister is married
a simple ceremony due to her short break and had to leave the country. the real event will be done on this march. i'll invite all of you guys! come2~

drawing again!
used to loved drawing. and this is my latest drawing. bit weird right? =_=

october highlight

completed UR series!
bought all UR series bar for my car..jeng2..now it's prettier and handled better

november highlight

my gf bought me this super cute ultraman. i just loved ultraman and she knows it. :) mine is the red one.

not much.. 
most of the time this month i'm on a date with my loved one. like all weekend. hihi

december highlight

her birthday!
her wishes are to get a bday cake and go genting. so i've done both of them. and in addition we also went to bukit tinggi. ;)

new year celebration!
went to the curve. the most happening place for new year every single year. so here is why it's happening. excessive usage of snow spray from over excited crowd.


PHEW~! and that's all 2011 that i want to remember. 
so 2012? it's a new beginning. :)
cheers everyone. enjoy the year lies ahead!